The Beginning

I started this blog a little over a year ago when I was starting a new chapter in my life. It was suposed to be a co-project with my sister to try posting a pic and a blog post everyday, but it proved hard to keep up with after a couple months. I ended up making the decision to change the blog and use it as a freelance kind of space to write about what ever I might be contemplating or inspired by that day. It was shortly after that I seemed to get lost in Life and left behind my blog, as I struggled to figure out where my place was in this world. I had taken a risk and started a new career only to find out it wasn't what I really wanted. I struggled with feelings of failure, self critizism, and confusion. I would never take back what I learned or experienced, as I believe now it was the path I was meant to take. It was a detour...it served as a bi-way of sorts, connecting the path I was on to the path I needed to be on. It brought me to Jesus. Jesus brought me a new outlook, a new understanding and showed me the light to illuminate the path he had planned for me. I am now on His road, the road I was always meant to take, and headed in the right direction with a clear destination for the first time in my life. I went back to school, pursuing the career I've always wanted to, 1 year after accepting Jesus into my life again, for good. Now that I'm in school and have had to do some writing I feel the old itching coming back, short stories, poetry, songs, essays, blogs....my need to write is bubbling back up to the surface, and was something I had put on the back burner in my life for a long time, along with my drawing, just little hobbies I'd indulged in when younger, like my many collections and keepsakes. I didn't give my drawing and writing the time and attention I gave my singing. Now my singing is still a very important part of my life but I use it to worship the Lord now, and I sing with a team of talented Christians who all devote their love of music to the Lord as well. I find myself feeling so blessed these days for all the many good things the Lord has provided for me. I feel his love and blessings all around me everyday, and they keep me focused, keep me going, keep me strong. We are a happier, healthier, stronger family because of Him, we are making the right decisions now, we feel really really good about the things we are doing, and feel really really good about the future for the first time in a long time, if ever. So I have returned to my blog. All the old entries are gone, and this is a fresh start for me...just like I am making in my life. A fresh start where the possibilities are endless. What will I write about? Probably just about everything. This IS the beginning.